I mentioned earlier in a previous post that this is not a spiritual blog. This is a love blog written by a spiritual person. I felt that needed to be reiterated. God has shaped my human experience in myriad of ways and one of those ways is by His love. Don’t look too deep into the previous statement. It is just a fact of my daily life journey. So one particular day, I was sitting on the couch praying. I don’t recall what the prayer was about but I am sure it had something to do with obtaining clarification about one topic or another. After enough time to say and ask all the things that I felt that I needed to, I closed the prayer with a standard, I love you Lord. Nothing too original but heartfelt nonetheless. What felt like a split second later, I heard an audible voice say the following statement:
If you couldn’t tell me you love me how else would I know?
Everything stopped precisely in that moment. Breath, heart, blinking, and anything else that I was consciously aware of. I was surprised and totally thrown off guard. This wasn’t the first time I had heard GOD speak but I think the dismay was geared more to what he actually said. My mind was a marquee of various questioning thoughts. Did I really hear? Always the first thought. Followed by, did anyone else hear that? Third, do I have an answer? Then finally, oh no! I don’t readily have an answer!
So I sat there, and it is highly likely that my mouth hung open. What were a couple of minutes felt like hours and I had no response. Somehow, I knew that He was aware of that fact too. I quickly realized that that was precisely the point. For me to know, and for me to find out. His question was not a question at all but a clear directive to get some things in order. In other words, God was saying to me, “Please get your entire life (emphasis mine)!”
I forget who coined that phrase, surely someone from Reality TV, but it was penetrating my mind that day. Three things I discovered after pondering His statement:
Real love has evidence.
Real love is tangible.
If all you have to love someone with are words, your love is of little to no value.
Then I thought, if my love of God could use some improvement-I know that my love of other people could use some work. I eventually (these matter take time) decided to comitt to these 3 things:
Love myself better.
Love people as I love myself.
Love God with all my heart.
The 3 above commitments to love are a daily process and by no means have I achieved mastery. However, I work at it with ever interaction with myself and others. I committed and the continual effort is living out that decision. Above all else, I deeply desire to live a life of love.
Real, daily, concrete, foundational love.
Love of God.
Love of Myself.
Love of People.
Living a life of love.